Life and fight

What is there to win for when you are about to lose it all,
What is there to fight for when death is all you seek for.

Mask

A new mask everyday

A new face for world

I hide behind it's shadow

Feeling the weight of the words

Seeking the light guiding my dark way.

Life and Death

I don't want to live when I die, I want to die when I live.

Just because I smile doesn't mean I am happy

Smiling/laughing /crying are like weather. They are short term and are usually snapshot of what you are feeling. Sometimes they may even be opposite of what you are feeling. Similarly feeling happy/sad is comparatively long term and are like climate. It does not change as soon as weather but it does change.